I didn't really expand on this. I didn't think I had that much really yesterday and the way I'm feeling, I'm actually suspecting I picked up a bug from the hospital... (if I go based off toilet spray pattern anyway, put it that way


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My point was I went to go see my father in law he looks fine. There are 8 other beds on the ward and my god. There was one old guy id place in his mid 80s he was the only one fully dressed and was arguing with his son and wife that he didn't want to stay on the ward he wanted to go home. He was standing and walking around. I mean if that guy wants to go home to die or just leave then let him go.
There was another been sat in the bed for 5 weeks because the consultant who is assigned to him is away on holiday and he wont be seen for another 2 weeks - what a shit show.
The rest. Talk about waiting to die. It was so depressing seeing all these old timers just there, obviously dealing with heart attacks of various strengths but what a way to be it just wasn't nice at all.
I said to the wife I'm never ending up here.
What a way to live - no dignity, just there waiting to run out your clock. If that's where you reached in your life you should have the option to just end it or the doctor can recommend it.
I feel so sorry for them all there, and also the same time angry because they are taking up resources, just to live what another week, month, year.
If that was me. Id leave and just walk into the sea.